trying to push the whole baby issue out my mind this week (The key word is trying) whatever I do though I still come back to it. I just need to figure out if this is the right thing to do or if my reasons are purely selfish. It seems like the whole world is against it, yet I keep dreaming of a little light that seems meant to be.

I was feeling really discouraged and OLD the other day. Then I started reading a message board of all women in their 40's starting families. It really gave me alot of much needed hope! and why not? why shouldn't I have another baby? I haven't thought of 1 good reason why I shouldn't if it's planned. hell maybe I will even just have two! Now that would really get peoples underwear in a twist. lol.