Thursday, January 24, 2008
so I have been trying to come to terms with how I will feel if I DON'T end up with more than 2 children. I am not getting any younger. It could very well be a possibility that by time I have enough $ saved for donor sperm I may not even be able to get pregnant. I am going to be 34 in July so I will be at least 36 when I start TTC again. will I be too old? am I going to be risking all of our futures? I am scared to get pg and scared of not being able to have more children as well. at least I have plenty of time to work through it all.lol. all I've got is time at this point.
My baby girl is almost 2.5! How did that happen? Time, can you please slow down? I am not ready for my little girl to grow up yet. Though I can't wait to see the woman she becomes one day. She is so on the brink of shedding her babyness though that I just have to eat it all up right now! sigh. starting to get baby lust again!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
I am going to start charting again this month if it kills me. Tomorrow I will buy a nice new basal thermometer since mine is MIA.
I have stopped drinking coffee which has helped with my ovary pain (I have a cyst) I am not too worried though. just hope it will resolve itself on it's own.
otherwise I need to exercise more..I feel so blah lately.
I have stopped drinking coffee which has helped with my ovary pain (I have a cyst) I am not too worried though. just hope it will resolve itself on it's own.
otherwise I need to exercise more..I feel so blah lately.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
back!
So after a break from this blog I am back. LOL.
I am looking into NWcryo right now. But I will research all the sperm banks. (there are only a few in north america) I am also entertaining the thought of finding a real live donor. It seems far more complicated (but cheaper)
Anyway, I likely won't ttc for at least 2 years though. More likely 3. But then again maybe I will do it twice! LOL.
Sooo many folks think I am nuts when I start talking about this. Then I get the whole "Oh maybe you will meet someone." OK. (why does no one ever listen to me?) .I really have no intention of getting into a relationship, let alone have more kids with another partner. Now sure why people aren't understanding that. I actually do like my life and have no intention of sharing it at this point with anyone but my children. I was divorced once and widowed once and really that's plenty for me. I just want to live my life now! I definitely don't need a man to do that! I'm not saying I am anti men or anything. I just don't want to put the effort into a relationship at this point. Maybe someon WILL come along but I am not going to hold my breath and hope.
Maybe it is the whole "buying a baby" thing though. It does kind of bother me too. But I want more children! Who says one needs to be partnered? I don't see a problem with donor sperm either. Just wonder what issues will come up for the children is all.
My kiddos are almost 4yo and 2.5yo at this point. I think I would love to have another baby they are around 6 and 7. We'll see what happens! First I need to start saving for the sperm! I think on average it takes 6 months for most to get pg using donor sperm (providing there are no other issues at play) That is approx $4800 with shipping costs for 6 months. (using 2 vials per month) whew!
Can we really put a price on children though? I mean it seems as if society has.. But really?
Anyway I am excited to be back planning for this. Needed to take some time out though and reasses my life. and now I am certain I really DO want more children! My almost 4yo is starting to want another sibling too! (he asked me recently when I'd have another baby- it was too sweet)
I am looking into NWcryo right now. But I will research all the sperm banks. (there are only a few in north america) I am also entertaining the thought of finding a real live donor. It seems far more complicated (but cheaper)
Anyway, I likely won't ttc for at least 2 years though. More likely 3. But then again maybe I will do it twice! LOL.
Sooo many folks think I am nuts when I start talking about this. Then I get the whole "Oh maybe you will meet someone." OK. (why does no one ever listen to me?) .I really have no intention of getting into a relationship, let alone have more kids with another partner. Now sure why people aren't understanding that. I actually do like my life and have no intention of sharing it at this point with anyone but my children. I was divorced once and widowed once and really that's plenty for me. I just want to live my life now! I definitely don't need a man to do that! I'm not saying I am anti men or anything. I just don't want to put the effort into a relationship at this point. Maybe someon WILL come along but I am not going to hold my breath and hope.
Maybe it is the whole "buying a baby" thing though. It does kind of bother me too. But I want more children! Who says one needs to be partnered? I don't see a problem with donor sperm either. Just wonder what issues will come up for the children is all.
My kiddos are almost 4yo and 2.5yo at this point. I think I would love to have another baby they are around 6 and 7. We'll see what happens! First I need to start saving for the sperm! I think on average it takes 6 months for most to get pg using donor sperm (providing there are no other issues at play) That is approx $4800 with shipping costs for 6 months. (using 2 vials per month) whew!
Can we really put a price on children though? I mean it seems as if society has.. But really?
Anyway I am excited to be back planning for this. Needed to take some time out though and reasses my life. and now I am certain I really DO want more children! My almost 4yo is starting to want another sibling too! (he asked me recently when I'd have another baby- it was too sweet)
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