still not charting. though I know I am ovulating!oh well...so much for that idea right now. it's funny though, since I had my kiddos I can FEEL ovulation so much more distinctly and I also can feel when my cycle is starting. I get these funky cervical twinges. almost like I can feel my cervix moving down. Otherwise I need to schedule a pap soon. oh joy. I am torn between seeing the dr. who delivered my son and the dr. who delivered my daughter. I really like both of them..I have thought of seeing a mw but still am not ready for that after my past experience. thankfully I have had great experiences with both dr's. (especially DD's who saw me after I transferred from a planned UC) he was pretty great about it.lol. the only thing is he cut me! I soooo did not want an episiotomy but I didn't stop him either. I was too scared at the time (due to being a UC transfer) Sadly,I was willing to get cut rather than make waves. thankfully I healed without any problems.

otherwise I am feeling really guilty about the whole baby issue latley. there's so many women who can't even have one child and here I want 3! (or more!) what is wrong with me?